Lost In The Crowd

WARNING: Some part of this entry might contains a spoiler of Happy Birthday movie, although most of you who read this entry isn’t going to watch it but I add this just in case!

I went to theater with my GF yesterday, there was so many people there it was like some rule that everyone must go to theater on Sunday afternoon. I plan to watch The Day The Earth Stood Still because the poster are so awesome and I’m (sort of) Keanu Reeves plus there is Jennifer Connelly in it, it was like awesome mixed of awesomeness! Unfortunately the earliest show we could get is 8.30PM which is way too late for us. We decide to watch another Thai movie called “Happy Birthday” instead, actually maybe just my GF that want to watch it ._.

I’m always skeptical when it comes to Thai movie, can call me racist or bias lol but every time I watch Thai movie it was either bored or disappointed. I watch trailer of this movie before, it was like tragic love story or some sort which exactly not my type -.- Anyway the movie is so-so but it has a lot of nice scenery in it some of which I don’t even know it exist in Thailand, also it got me thinking about something in the story.

What you are going to do if someone you love is suffered from brain death. This type of plot been used over and over before but I believe no one really know what is the right answer, the right answer might not even exist at all.

First half of the movie is all about a guy meet a girl and develop their relationship, funny story and a lot of beautiful scenery but that stop when the girl got into a car crash accident while she was on the way to meet her boy friend who sitting in the coffee shop across the street, watching his girl friend got hit by a car with his very own eyes. She was taken to hospital and few days later her doctor told her parent that she is suffered from brain death. Obviously the man’s world is collapsed, he still doesn’t give up hope that his girl friend is still alive and she will get well some day. He asked her parent to give him a right to take care of their daughter.

The man start losing his saving, his car and his furniture because he need money to take care of his girl friend. Now he is going to lose his social life, his friend and his job too because he couldn’t left her alone at the house when he suppose to go to work, afraid of something might happen to her when he wasn’t there. At this point I wonder that he doesn’t get the fact that his girl won’t wake up again, she can’t be fixed no matter how hard he try.

One day the girl’s parent show up and ask for him to let their daughter goes because they don’t want to see her daughter suffer anymore, of course the man doesn’t accept it. They take it to the court and of course the man lose the case and next thing he know is he standing in front of OR room (or some thing) looking at parent say good bye to their daughter.

Will you let her goes?

Euthanasia or mercy killing is the right thing to do? I know state of brain death can’t be fixed, no one will recovery from it, it is the end but if those people were wrong? If miracle does exist? I’ll regret decision of pulling the plug to stop her from suffering? Can I live with this guilt feeling that I didn’t do my best to save her?

Will you do your best to keep her alive?

Even you know that she won’t wake up? Maybe some day some one will discover how to cure people who suffered from brain death state? You really do this because you want her to get better or just don’t want to feel the guilty of not taking care of her? So who actually you do this for? person you love or yourself?

I start thinking about it and realize that euthanasa is probably the best for everyone, but I don’t think I’m brave enough to do that and never will. If this happen to me instead and I suffered from brain death, I’m pretty sure I want to die. I don’t want to stay here and cause more pain to people around me, I don’t want to stay and give them false hope, I also don’t think they are brave enough to let me go.